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Redeemed

Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. Isaiah 43:1b NIV
I waited patiently for the Lord to help me,and he turned to me and heard my cry. Psalm 40:1 NIV
This song is part of my life story. I grew up in a Christian home and decided to follow Jesus when I was 4. I never really turned away. I tried to listen and grow in Him all through high school and University.
This was the last song written before our first daughter was born. We had a wonderful month together, but suddenly, I was plunged into severe post-partum depression. Having no history of mental illness at all, we were all taken by surprise.  It was truly terrible for a few months, and then even when my anxiety and sleep were back under control, I was left with a crisis of faith. God would just not go back into the box I had him in.I felt that I had no rock to stand on anymore. I missed Jesus so much, but I couldn't feel Him with me anymore. I remember hearing the Christmas story with new ears, thinking how ridiculous it sounded. God decided to be born as a human in a barn. And I'm the crazy one??
Slowly, I found my way back to Him. Looking back now, I can see He had been holding me even when I couldn't sense His presence anymore. He was there. Now, I really feel like my life was redeemed from the pit. I was lost, but I've been found.
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